the return

So it seems like a month since my last post here, and looks like my little meme will be finished in years time.

And It's 2011 already. I cant seem to believe that I started posting here almost a year ago now? And seeing my old post makes me wanna laugh or makes me wanna go back to those days, or makes me wanna crawl into my own skin.

A year. 365 days of randomness to anything and everything.

And, as the New Year enters, there are a lot of things that I have to go forward to, entering a new chapter in life that is college, wrapping things up in High School, About to try to change my ways of life. I don't know what else, but I am pretty sure as the days goes by many things will come, and go.

Knowing in three months time I have to say goodbye to high school.

And after two months I have to enter college.

College.

A new place, a new world, a new chapter.

I think it's weird. And I am a little excited about it.

College means new environment, new friends, new... everything.

But It doesn't mean we have to forget those people who became a part of our high school life, those people that became a part of our daily lives for the past years, those people who shared laughter and pains and everything.

Those people who became our family.

But sometimes, those people, who I dearly considered as my family, seems so far away from me, like I am invisible or something to them. I don't know, but there are just times that I think they're so close yet so far to me. Its like you know they're just beside you, yet it feels like they wasn't, and you are like somewhat invisible, and it feels very very bad.

But still, you cant help but to adore and love those people. No matter what happens.

And that was it. My 2011 will be a long long year. I suppose.

And this post went from the meme to future to my PMS drama to beyond. I feel sorry, and half relieved.

:)

Day 7: The Stubborn Tramp

Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

TAURUS - The Tramp
Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight. Fight for what they want. Can be annoying at times, but for the love of attention. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. They can be self centered and if they want something they will do anything to get it. They love to sleep and can be lazy. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth!

I Think this really fits my personality, not that I'm saying that I am also a great kisser (I've never been kissed, or kissed someone), but I am extremely stubborn regarding some things, And I usually fight for what I want. I am also a caring person, And a generous helper, perhaps. I can also say that I love sleep and can be very lazy at times. So I think this all fits me (Am I attractive tho? haha)

Day 5 and 6: Suicidal Thoughts and the 30 facts about me.

This day meme thingy is taking too long to finish, ugh, but still, I'll try my very best to finish it quickly.


Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.


A thought about me ending up my life.... hmm, I know there was a time that I just want to die because of some problems regarding myself before, but the point of me wanting to end up my life so bad, I've never experienced that, but recently, I think I could already contemplate ways of killing myself because of Real Life issues and the terrifying fact regarding our test results.

Over all, I don't really have that bad urge to commit suicide. I am afraid to die now.


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Day 06 - Write 30 (err 17) interesting facts about yourself.

I don't know if it seems interesting to others, but whatever. :)

1. I am a lefty, but can also write on the right (but it's like a penmanship of an 7 yr old)
2. I can draw.
3. I am God-Fearing.
4. I tend to clap using my feet at times.
5. I am familiar with classical and old music (I think its cool because half of my classmates are not familiar with the Beatles or Queen or The Temptations or Monkees etc etc)
6. I am gaga over David Cook.
7. I can't go out without wearing my watch.
8. Life is also hard to me if I forgot to bring my handkerchief.
9. I sleep with my ponytail on.
10. I think a lot before I finally fall asleep.
11. I am trustworthy (as they say)
12. There is a star on the night sky that I called "Cuffed by a Star" and wishes to it at times.
13. I love to name my stuffed toys.
14. I tend to keep almost ALL of the doodles and scratch papers that contains pathetic-ness of my early high school days.
15. I am the photographer of the girls. (and i'm not great in photography, i just don't like to join in =))
16. I used to be a supper addict in twitter, but I've managed to control it.
17. I am not that afraid of spiders (but I have a massive fear of cockroaches)

(edited 1/7/11~ adding more. Thank you D! :])

18. There was this guy named Andy Skib (DCook's friend) that makes my heart glee.
19. I tend to be always badtrip.
20. I get wild sometimes.
21. I'm pretty in my own usual ways.
22. They say that I have a helpful advice.
23. Sometimes I talked like an alien and out of this world.
24.Dian ~loves me. (that's what she said XD)
25. I'm a good person (not that I'm saying that I'm nice as an angel)
26. I love cutting my hair short
27. I LOVE listening to gossips (this, especially when it's about room peeps)
28. I can keep secrets
29. I'm thoughtful
30. I can give importance to people around me

childhood movies

"You've got a friend in me"

"To infinity and beyond!"

"Reach for the sky!"

Yeah, all of these was from "Toy Story", which is a very popular movie since I was like, a baby. The first part of it was first shown on the 1995 (my birth year) and ever since the movie won the hearts of the children and the children like then. Four years later the second part was released, and this year (2010, 11 years after the second one) the final installment of the series was released. I am pretty excited about the last one, but upon watching it I felt sad, and a bit nostalgic. I was wondering where are my toys now? those toys I hide years ago to prevent them from being broken by a toddler or some younger relative. I felt sad because it's like watching your own childhood go too. It became a big part of my childhood, so i don't wonder at all why those teenagers and young adults who watched it actually cried.

The story taught us not only to take care of our toys and love them, but they also taught us the value of friendship over years.

Another movie that became a part of my childhood was "Harry Potter". Honestly, I didn't watched the whole series (I only watched the first part) but still, upon seeing the updates about the last installment, makes me sad. Also, upon seeing the screencaps/quotes/ everything HP on tumblr makes me sad too. Seeing them growing up is like seeing yourself growing up. It's like, you've grown to see them together as a kid, and as the years go by, seeing them going on separate ways, is like seeing myself moving on to college.

As for entering college, I suddenly remembered Andy, the child and the care-taker of Woody and company on Toy Story. I think I can relate to his story on TS3. Me, as upon exiting high school, has to let go to some of the things in my life. And as for friendships, I think it's hard for the Harry Potter trio to go to separate ways, like me and my present friends who's about to go to different directions sooner.

but here's that I can say, my childhood is love. Maybe those movies will come to an end, but the memories surrounding them will be forever in our hearts.

The Girl I Know Pt. 2/?

The girl, as far as we all know, was a sensitive girl, but there are also times that she becomes the evil of the story. She could be witty and weird, or will just sing out of nowhere or just, stare.

She is always having a hard time on hiding her feelings, especially about the opposite sex. She always tend to blush and freak out around the guys.

And always, on those circumstances, her tall and chubby friend was always there to... make her more embarrassed.

"Oh gosh you're blushing!" they will say.

"Oh no I'm not. What for anyway?" she would probably say, but her face is flushed red now.


There are also times that she is the master of the teasing. Or the topic opener about endless gossips in class. She is always curious about whats happening behind the school grounds, even though sometimes it wasn't entirely part of her business. At all.

The girl also tends to be over clumsy, especially when the guy, was there.

This girl tends to look at the guy at times. She was pretty envious. Those eyes, as she mentally says, those eyes. Admittedly, she founds him attractive. She also tends to like or hate him on a typical day, depending on her mood.


She has a friend that always told her not to be a pessimist. She was pretty and intelligent and talented (maybe except for dancing, like the girl), the two of them always argue with each other, but at the end of the day? they still love each other no matter what. They share the same interests and such,. She is attractive, and the guys like her. She tends to be a weirdo or a bad girl or a pessimist like the girl.


The girl, still thinks she was not in love with the attractive guy. She still finds him an ass at times. She doesn't like him, maybe a little crush, but not more than that. Will never go beyond that for sure.