Promises, promises, and disappointments.

Ugh. How bad things are sometimes.

I feel so utterly gloomy right now, for not pleasing myself with my grades, or maybe for disappointing my mother yet again.

I feel sad because I always put myself down, and the fact that I always let the pressure and my emotions get the best in me, thus preventing me to be a better person.

I also feel disappointed to myself for not having this thing called self confidence. Maybe I have somewhere, but I am just so pessimistic or afraid to show the world what I got, because of my thinking that it might disappoint someone or they won't going to like it.

Or the fact that I always feel that there's no one behind my back to support me or love me.

And I am not holding on to promises lately. They suck ass sometimes.

They just sometimes gives you false hope, and thus disappointing you and hurting your feelings.


But still... I am thankful despite of all the shit and ups and downs. I know there was still my family to appreciate me, or my dearest friends (even though I think some of them don't consider me as one though) I love you all.







PS: to Dian, Ian, RM, Gel, Kit and Pat. Thanks for the advises earlier. You guise rock. :* :)

Miss Fighter

Do you feel like you want to end your life already? If so, THINK AGAIN.

So I stumbled over Brooke White's blog and saw this gem. Her life is so wonderful but cancer is along her way. Her story is wonderful and inspiring. She always wants to live as if she doesn't have that sickness. I admire her for not giving up despite of everything on her way, and she has a big heart too.

I hope God will help her over this. I know He will. She is a brave girl with the heart of gold. :)