negativity blues

The sad moment when you realize how alone you actually are. No one ever messages you first or texts you first or anything. So it gets to the point where you don’t want to put in the effort with people who don’t put in any effort for you, so you end up spending your life at home, never going anywhere.

Ha ha ha. Thank you tumblr for reminding me how lonely my life is right now. 

Also, thank you to my asshole guy friends for making me feel like I'm the ugliest girl in the world.

The Girl I Know Pt 4/?

Part 1- Part 2- Part 3

Upon entering college, the girl had changed a lot. She is not the type to cry easily anymore. She had been able to gain some confidence and was able to create friendships here and there. She was still crazy as ever and she got herself another inspiration besides the "Rock-Singer-who-has-this-oh-so-wonderful-voice-and-a-sexy-face"

They were four British guys with moptops and attractive faces and voices.

----~****~----

In the first days of college, the girl had her first college crush on her class. He was a good-looking guy with curly hair and a tall frame. So much like the attractive guy. No wonder she was attracted to this new guy. She just reminded her of him so much . 

Her new friends are also aware of her like-ness over this yet another handsome guy. She even drew it once at the back of her new notebook because she just couldn't resist in doing so.

But then the attraction is short-lived because the girl had mistaken the handsome new classmate as gay and besides, he's popular with other girls.

(Did I also mention at that time, he was so in love with a high school friend of his?)

The weeks went by and our heroine became accustomed to college life. And she owe it all to her new found friends: From the 'random classmate' to the one she had always called "Jasmine" to the one she thought she would NEVER be friends with to many others.

And as the weeks flew by she found this intelligent guy from her class so attractive she almost had a crush on him, but it was also short-lived as she thought this guy was boastful as hell.

The semester flew by so fast, just like how the girls feelings toward the attractive guy fades. 

And as the new semester comes, more changes went into the girls life.

and a certain event would change her feelings forever.

The Girl I Know Pt 3/?

Part 1- Part 2

The girl, still thinks she was not in love with the attractive guy. She still finds him an ass at times. She doesn't like him, maybe a little crush, but not more than that. Will never go beyond that for sure.

And it never went beyond that.

----~***~----

And after months the girl, the attractive guy, and her friends graduated High School. There are still so many questions floating into the girl's mind, thinking that she might not be able to get over thinking about the guy and his whereabouts.  Her friends still think that she had indeed, fallen in love with him. There are moments that the girl thought "Damn, maybe I did fall into the attractive guy"

But the said thought proved to be wrong  when the girl I know entered college.

----~****~----

Upon entering college, she thought that she wouldn't be able to have friends because she is weird, but then a random new classmate talked to her and it changed her view forever.

Upon entering the room, our heroine was so anxious as to what she would expect on her first day in college. She saw oh so many new faces, each of them with different personalities. She immediately made friends with the "random" classmate. 

As she continues to scan her new surroundings, she saw a little guy. The girl had the urge to laugh because she thought the young man--- who looked so nervous--- had went into the wrong room, the he was a High School freshmen instead.

Little did she know that young guy would change her life forever in one swift motion.

30 Korean Drama Questions

I just saw this on a certain forum and it inspires me to answer it too. (Even though I'll end up answering Winter Sonata on this one hell no haha)

1. Your Favorite Kdrama:

I have too many to mention but no doubt the toppermost of the poppermost would be Winter Sonata.

2. Your Favorite Male Lead: 

I have three (bwahahaha): Dokgo Jin (The Greatest Love), Han Jung Woo (Missing You), Min Jung Ho (Dae Jang Geum)

3. Your Favorite Female Lead: 

Gu Ae Jung (The Greatest Love) and Kim Sam Soon

4. Your Favorite Third Wheel Male Character: 

Yoon Phil Joo (The Greatest Love) and Harry Borrison (Missing You)

5. Your Favorite Third Wheel Female Character: 

No one. Most of the time I hate third wheel female characters with a burning passion.

6. Your Favorite Song From a Drama OST: 

From The Beginning Until Now- Ryu (Winter Sonata)

7. Your Favorite line/s by a Male Lead Character: 

"This letter is written both to me and you. I may forget that I even wrote this letter, or this letter itself might disappear. But this letter is written for me and you, either one of us who may live on holding onto memories. When I first came into possession of this talisman, I wanted to know what its cause and effect were. At first, I thought it was the realisation of my frustrated dream. Then, I thought perhaps the reason was our fateful meeting. After that, I thought it must be for me to live in a new world. But now, I have finally realised the real cause and effect. In order to save my own life, I would have to lose everything. My future, my name, my values…my people…and also you. To gain life, one must pay a price and lose something else…that is obvious logic. I was foolish to think I could at least have one thing. How much must I lose in order to repay the debt of my life? Never being able to see you again? I have realised even that is a luxury. Memories. Our memories…Losing them is the final price. I do not know what happens now. Will we forget each other? Or will we live unable to forget, forever tormented? My final wish is to be able to remember you. In an aimless life, to not even have those memories would be hell. And you…and you…if you should happen to read this letter far into the future, I pray you will not realise for whom this letter is meant for." - Kim Bung Do; Queen In Hyun's Man; EP 15

"When you realize that you don't love someone, I think its best, for their sake, to tell them right away. It may hurt in the beginning, but in the end its the best way" - Lee Min Hyung; Winter Sonata

8. Your Favorite Line/s by a Female Lead Character: 

"When you're really in love, the best house is the one you build in each others hearts" -Jung Yujin; Winter Sonata

"Old memories are precious, indeed, but we'll make new ones together" 

"I don't love the Joon-Sang of my memories, I love you who's standing before me"

"A person you bury in your heart, you can never forget"

9. Your Favorite Line/s by a Male Third Wheel Character: 

"I.... Only need one thing, you" - Harry Borrison; Missing You

"I was always by your side, but you weren't mine" - Kim Sang Hyuk; Winter Sonata

10. Your Favorite Line/s by a Female Third Wheel Character:

11 and 13. Your Favorite Dialogue and Your Favorite "I Love You":
MH: How long are you going to keep the dead alive? Is it so hard to forget him? Yujin! I want to ask you something. If he were alive, would the two of you still be in love?
YJ: Mr. Lee!
MH: Aren't you longing for him because he's no longer around?
YJ: Please stop. It's not your concern.
MH: But it is. You told me I've never truly loved anyone. True, I don't know much about love, but your loving him isn't love.
YJ: Enough.
MH: That's not love. It's obsession and self pity.
YJ: Stop!
MH: Wake up and face the reality. He's dead.
YJ: Please stop. Why are you doing this to me? Why?
MH: Because I like you! Because... I love you.

(From Winter Sonata, ep. 8)


12. Your Favorite Story?:

Coffee Prince or Full House, I guess?

 13. Your Favorite "I Love You":

See number 11.

14. Your Favorite Kissing Scene: 

The first car kiss in Queen Inhyun's Man

15. Your Favorite Ending: 

The ending in Queen In Hyun's Man. Its just so sweet :D

16. A Kdrama You've Started But Can't Finish: 

To The Beautiful You- I just keep on comparing it to Hana Kimi Japan every time I watch it.

17. A Kdrama That You've Watched More Than Once: 

Stairway to Heaven, My Name is Kim Sam Soon, Full House, Autumn Tale (because they used to replay it on our country) and Winter Sonata

18. The Worst Kdrama You've Watched Until the End: 

Sassy Girl Chun Hyang?

19. Your Best Actor: 

Kwon Sang Woo and Bae Yong Joon (ok I'll post the classic ones)

20. Your Best Actress: 

Kim Sun Ah, Choi Ji Woo and Yoon Eun Hye (she is improving every drama)

21. Your Worst Actor:

Bi 

22. Your Worst Actress: 

I dunno but I just don't like Soo Ae.

23. Your Best Couple: 

Dokgo Jin and Ae Jung (The Greatest Love) and Kang Joon Sang and Jung Yujin (Winter Sonata)

24. Your Worst Couple: 

Kwon Sang Woo and Kim Hee Sun (Sad Love Song) and Song Seung Hoon and Son Ye Jin (Summer Scent)-- there's just... ZERO chemistry for me.

25. Your First Kdrama: 

Autumn Tale

26. Your Most Recently Finished Kdrama: 

Queen In Hyun's Man

27. A Kdrama you don't love but everyone else does: 

Playful Kiss. The main girl just infuriates me to no end.

28. A Kdrama you love but no one else seems too:

Winter Sonata. *sigh*

29. A Kdrama that made you happy: 

Boys Over Flowers, The Greatest Love and My Name is Kim Sam Soon

30. A Kdrama the made you sad: 

Stairway to Heaven, Missing You and A Rosy Life

The Eye Candies: Part 2: The other Heartthrobs

(Continued from this post)

NOTE: ALL photos posted here are NOT mine. (c) to their owners. :)

If the first part consists of a certain hot-ass band named The Beatles, this second part will consist of some more musicians and Koran Actors and such.

(Please forgive my crappy writing skills. Please bear with me dear readers... If there's one haha.)

For you (again), Camille/@ohyeahsimbol ♥

Well, let me start this post with David Cook. Yes, the guy who won American Idol (and my heart) 5 years ago (5 YEARS?! OMG). At first he was not really my type as I root for the "other" David but when he did "Always Be My Baby"? Bang! Here goes my heart.

Of course besides his oh-so-wonderful voice, he had that sexy rocker look too. LOOK AT THAT BEARD UGH LOOK AT THAT SMIRK.

LOOK THERE GOES MY OVARIES. He looks so cute with kids by his side too HELP

He could be so cute like a fucking button too. My goodness.

Also,

Look at them THIGHS OMG DSAJHDSHJDSHJDS

Ok I'll stop now before I gradually explode. xD

And this cutie pie above was the most recent guy I found so adorbs. He is Park Yoochun and he is a former member of TVXQ and is now on JYJ (as far as I know haha. Sorry die-hard fans). 

I first watched him over I Miss You/Missing You and UGH HE IS SO GREAT AT ACTING UGH I AM NOT REALLY THAT ENTRANCED OVER NEW K-DRAMAS ANYMORE BUUUUT YOOCHUN CHANGED THAT UGH 

(did I also mention that he and Yoon Eun Hye could make a dashing couple? xD)

He being cute on the set of Rooftop Prince

OH DEAR LORD HE LOOKS SO GOOD IN SUITS TOO OMFG UGH

HERE HAVE A MASSIVE SPAM OF HIS FACE.

And yes, another Korean Actor it is, aye? :)

YES YES YES remember this mofo who made majority of us fall in love for the first time with his "prince charming" appeal on Winter Sonata? That dual character of Kang Joon Sang (Jun Kang)/Lee Min Hyung (Joseph Lee) who made us kilig and cry? Or do you remember Damdeok of The Legend or Frank Shin of Hotelier? Or the handsome President in Dream High? He's Bae Yong Joon in real life. AND WHO COULD HAVE THOUGHT HE IS ALREADY 40?!

Who could have thought this Prince Charming on Winter Sonata who wears such classy outfits (AND ENDLESS PAIRS OF MUFLERS/SCARVES)

... HAS THIS KIND OF BODY?! *fans self*

LET ME JUST MENTION HOW BEAUTIFUL HIS HAIR AND FACE LOOKS LIKE

BABY YOU CAN DRIVE MAH CAR, AND MAYBE I'LL LOVE YOOOU (MORE)

And apparently he loves to take pictures. (Well that doesn't help me hahaha)

nuninunu~ This guy was basically my first love. He is the reason why I am soooo attracted over guys with glasses and with brown-ish hair and ugh. If I could just meet someone like his Kang Joon Sang character, at least... *sigh*

Oh, to end this 2nd Part, (HAHA Camille sorry if this is crap) let me just share this picture:

THE HAIR RESEMBLANCE IS JUST UNCANNY I. CANNOT. SDJHSDJHSJDFJ

Hope you're able to enjoy this dahlin' ♥

And... Thank you for bearing with me, hah! There is a bonus part, The "Etc" part. Stay tuned! xD

~ V ♥ 

The Eye Candies: Part 1: The Beatles' Style

These tweets started it all, really, presumably, this photo

And because this shit would be too long for twitter, and because I love this gal named Camille, I mam doing this impromptu dump of cutie pies. Baaaaah! C'mon join us on this bandwagon xD

Firstly I would introduce you into this one mothereffin band named The Beatles. Of course almost ALL of us are atleast to these four guys: John, Paul, George and Ringo, but besides their badass music, they are indeed looking so freaking handsome too. No wonder our mothers/grandmothers are going ridiculously gaga over them

Of course this is John Lennon. The "peace guru" as they say. I won't be discussing their skills because its painfully obvious but LOOK AT HIS FACE. THAT AQUILINE NOSE THAT LIPS THAT NECK UGH DAMN THIS SHIT.

LOOK AT HOW BAMF HE IS AT FREAKING 16 OR 17 UGH

LOOK HOW FUCKING CUTE HE IS WHEN HE SMILES

UGH I'LL STOP NOW BEFORE IT COMES THE JOHN LENNON PICSPAM

Then there comes Paul McCartney, the "cute" Beatle. There's no complaining about this one, as he is really cute as a freaking button

Look at that McHamster. I wanna squish his cheeks until it bleed.

BUUUUT he could be hot as fucking hell too

He is also a master in making bitchfaces

(Oh and he's a hipster too in that photo)

Then there comes Gerorge Harrison, the "awkward" Beatle, hahaha. Look at them ears!

They say he LOOOOVES TO EAT

DAMN AWKWARD SMILE <3 nbsp="" p="">

HE LOOKED SO HOT DURING HAMBURG I CANNOT

HE could be a freaking model too y'know?

(Let me add this because this picture really reminded me of Joe Jonas during Camp Rock BWAHAHAHAHA)

And lastly there's Ringo Starr, the "drummer", as one of the papers say. Look at THAT FACE HE IS SO CUTE DAMN

DANGIT LOOK

AT

HIM ASHBSDHBSDHBDFHS

Dangit, look at them all in this picture, guuuh *fansself*

Say goodbye to your ovaries now, darlings.

And to finish this hell of a picspam, let me just add some McLennon for my darling Camille ;)

gif (c) paulmcfruity.tumblr.com :)

Enjoy darlings! Wait for the next part :D

- V ♥

Meme to fill the gaps... :)

Hi, my name is: Vea

Never in my life have I been: Able to see my idols (MY LIFE SUCKS HAHA)

The one person who can drive me nuts is: my classmates.

High school: Is fun in the shittiest ways possible.

When I’m nervous: I walk and walk and walk and my hands are sweating and my heart is pounding. And I tend to bite my nails.

The last song I listened to was: Run For Your Life- The Beatles

My hair is: straight. yay!

When I was 5: I usually called the milk as ENERGY! XD

Last Christmas: I ate a LOOOT again xD

I should be: doing my last project? washing the dishes? xD

When I look down I see: The floor..

The happiest recent event was: when my classmate treated me a McDo Float (babaw eh. xD)

If I were a character on ‘Friends’ I’d be: No one hahahaha

By this time next year: I am maybe applying for our summer OJT. 

My current gripe is: My ever so boastful friend of mine.

I have a hard time understanding: Why do *that* person has to boast about EVERYTHING.

You know I like you when: I feel funny inside when I see you. xD

If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: my family.

Take my advice: Don't make permanent solutions on temporary problems :)

The thing I want to buy: KOREAN FOOD! And CD's :D

If you visit the place I was born: You'll be glad. 

I plan to visit: KOREA! EUROPE! US! :D

If you spent the night at my house: You'll be bummed big time.

I’d stop my wedding if: I certainly hate the person, or if David Cook came there to intervene it. :P

I’d rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: NOT IN A FUCKING MILLION YEARS I'M GOING TO LICK IT'S BELLY. I'D RATHER GO DIE

Most recent thing I’ve bought myself:  Cellphone load hahahahaha

Most recent thing someone else bought me: McDonald's Coke Float :D

My favorite blonde is: Jennifer Lawrence :D

My favorite brunette is: John Lennon and DCook

My favorite red head is: I dunno? xD

My middle name is: Vernie if we base it the western way, De Leon on our Native way.

In the morning I: Am awake, or sleeping still.

The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are: butterflies.

Last night I was: Doing nothing.

There’s this guy I know who: I admire more than I could ever admit HAHAHAHA.

If I was an animal I’d be: a Cat!

A better name for me would be: - none.

Tomorrow I am: joining the procession for this year's Lenten Season.

Tonight I am: shufflin'. WHAT. 

My birthday is: May 16

pitter patter pitter patter

I want to hate you

But I just can't.

I want to be angry at the mere thought of you.

But I found it to be so impossible.

I want you to get lost as if I didn't get to meet you.

But it would be so absurd.

How am I able to do all of the mentioned things above?

When the mere thought of you brightens my day.

Or when I see you flash that smile of yours it makes me smile too?

Or how you never failed me to amuse me in almost every little thing you do?

And It is frustrating me at times. It really does.

Even though you are next to me, I think of you

I like

I do not like

I like

I do not like

I like

If a droplet of raindrops and creates five waves,

that means I like you.

I feel shy but I'll tell you when it rains.

That's my little gift for you.

He bites on a pen.

With that pen, he writes.

He looks at the sky.

He blows on his cheeks.

He yawns.

He closes his eyes.

He can't drink hot things well.

He chants the multiplication backwards.

He falls asleep.

When I call him out, he always turn to the left. I don't really understand this.

It spins.

My head must have gone crazy.

Even though you are right next to me, I think of you.

I hope it rains today.

I keep thinking of you.

The wind blows.

I think of you.

Because the wind makes my eyes watery.

I think of you.

When I am out of breath running.

I think of you.

The light blinks.

I think of you.

From the light to my house, it takes 280 steps.

I think of you.

I think of you, who erased my bad memories.

(Jung Woo, Han Jung Woo)

What will you do when the first snow falls?

(I will see you. I only have one friend, Lee So Yeon)

Oh, I do not know how emotional I am upon watching this certain episode of Missing You. Oh how I wish I have my own Han Jung Woo. *Sighs*

And, this is for my friend Zara. Cheers! ♥

Hello, 2013

Meme Time because its been ages since I last posted in here and haaaah

1. What did you do in 2012 that you’d never done before?

Traveled far without the company of my family members, not sleeping because of a party, overnight with friends for the first time

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year 

NO and NEVER

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

Uhhh... no one gave birth this year on our fam.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

Thank God no one did.

5. What countries did you visit?

Do you think I have the money to go out of the country?

6 What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?

Patience, and eagerness to work on time

7. What dates from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

Every special moments with my turling friends, Angeline's 18th b day, my birthday, CAFA Night, and the Plaridel Trip, because those moments made me feel so special.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Passing my math subject last semester, and finishing my canvas plates and magazine :D

9. What was your biggest failure?

That I wasn't able to gain more confidence and me having still my "creepy" moves

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

A flu and an extremely upset stomach at the end of the year/new years. SO FANTASTIC.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

The Hunger Games book and oh, Beatle shirts! 

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

my closest friend in college, because she's always there for me through ups and downs. And oh, a guy friend of mine because the way he handled his "situation" was just... gah.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed 

Appalled: A friend of mine

Depressed: Also a friend of mine. And he/she made me feel.. extremely depressed for two days

14. Where did most of your money go 

FOOD! and school handouts and commuting fares and T shirts. xD

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

The Hunger Games! And the overnight at my friends house for her birthday.

16. What song will always remind you of 2012?

Gangnam Style lol. It would be "Heels Over Head//Two Is Better Than One" and uh, "One Thing". xD

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder? (b) thinner or fatter? (c) richer or poorer?

happier, thinner (as they say LOL) BUT POORER STILL HAHA

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Being less impatient and be able to say my feelings without being so paranoid of what would they react/say.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Thinking about the most unnecessary things. And Thinking about the people who doesn't even bother to give a shit about you. And procrastinating. and being worried all the time.

20. How did you spend Christmas?

With family, and on the afternoon with my two guy friends.

21. Did you fall in love in 2012?

Uhhh... yes? with fictional characters?

22. What was your favorite TV program?

I do not have specific fav because I do not watch TV regularly.

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

Nope. Annoyed yes, but hate, nah its too strong.

24. What was the best book you read?

The Hunger Games no doubt, and The Fault In Our Stars.

25. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Boys Like Girls and One Direction (Well thank you classmate! ♥)

26. What did you want and get?

The Hunger Games book and I got to watch it in the theaters 

27. What did you want and not get?

Beatles CD's UGH. And Walls And Bridges, and Boys Like Girls' Crazy World LP

28. What was your favorite film of this year?

Skyfall and The Hunger Games

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

17, and I spent it with four of my loveliest friends who made effort into going in our house to celebrate with me 

30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

All of those impromptu "trips" with friends

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2012?

Simple and its so "me"

32. What kept you sane?

God, family and friends

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

John Lennon won the crown for this year heehee

34. What political issue stirred you the most?

EVERYTHING THAT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH SEN. TITO SOTTO AND THE CORONA IMPEACHMENT TRIAL IN WHICH THE RESULTS ARE PURE BULLSHIT

35. Who did you miss?

Zara and Rixy (tho I see them everyday)

36. Who was the best new person you met?

Kuya Miah and Tin-Tin and Jape (Rixy's classmates) and Ate Rona :)

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012.

Don't waste your time thinking about the person who doesn't even think about you, and to trust no one.

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

I remember what you wore on our first day

You came into my life and I thought hey, you know this could mean something