You know that feeling, when you think of all of the moments you've spent with that person, that person whom you dearly consider as a great friend and a shoulder to lean on, and then realizing the bitter truth that it will not happen again. It sucks, so damn much.
It's like stabbing your heart until it breaks into pieces. pieces and pieces. That feeling when you see them being happy now in others company and finds it boring to be with you.
I know majority of it was my fault in the first place. Not trusting them, or being always grouchy, or whatever the reasons are. I just know that I have a problem with all of this.
But... They also have their faults. i don't know, but they do.
It also hurts me to see that person talking to you for the reason that they need something from you, or they have something to ask. It makes me feel like a terrible person.
Terrible to the point its utterly saddening and annoying and makes you feel like utter crap.
Terrible to the point that you are thinking you are a bad person for existing only when they need you.
Its just bad... plain bad.
It's like stabbing your heart until it breaks into pieces. pieces and pieces. That feeling when you see them being happy now in others company and finds it boring to be with you.
I know majority of it was my fault in the first place. Not trusting them, or being always grouchy, or whatever the reasons are. I just know that I have a problem with all of this.
But... They also have their faults. i don't know, but they do.
It also hurts me to see that person talking to you for the reason that they need something from you, or they have something to ask. It makes me feel like a terrible person.
Terrible to the point its utterly saddening and annoying and makes you feel like utter crap.
Terrible to the point that you are thinking you are a bad person for existing only when they need you.
Its just bad... plain bad.
